You ever feel alone in a crowd? You're with a group of friends, and you just feel incredibly isolated? The grouo breaks up into smaller groups and you just end up… there? I get that feeling a lot. A whole bunch. I don't know why. I tell myself it's my social battery dying, or I'm just tired. But I know that's not right. I just feel a heavy emptiness inside, like I want to cry but I can't muster the force to. I always feel incredibly guilty when this feeling washes over me. Like I could fix it by just going up and joining in. Like I'm just being a hog for attention. Maybe I am, maybe I'm not. Either way, it just makes the feeling worse. I feel like everyone's judging, whispering to themselves "look how attention-whorey she's been right now. god, why can't she be normal."
anyway. this is an SCP about that feeling. images used were created by me, taken during a time when I felt that way. CC BY-SA 3.0